My family

Recently, there are many problems that occur in my family.
I do not know what can the second child do in order to solve
the problems. Sometimes i will feel left out in the family as
my parents are only putting concentration on my brothers
especially my elder brother, but at the same time i also
understand that he needs their attention.

My mother just talked to my elder about his future and his
attitude towards study, my brother didn't even want to bother
and blamed my mom from being so irritating. I asked my brother,
what kind of brother is he?! He is suppose to be the one that
leads me, my younger brother and my sister but NOT ME.

He asked us to leave behind the promises that he gave.
Today when i received the news that i need to go for NS,
i was upset but I didn't cry. But the moment i see that the
brother that I used to sayang him a lot changed to a person
which i don't know how his future is going to be, i cried.

I really sayang this brother a lot a lot. In my family, if
anyone asks me to get a cup of water for him or for her, i will
not do so. But most of the time, when my gorgor asked me to
do that, i will. I really hope that God will lead him to the
right path, i hope he will understand that my parents did all
these is for his own good.I just want to have a happy family.
I hope i can have it.

哥哥，如果你有机会看见我所写的这一切，你不需要告诉我。
我只是希望你能够改过自新，用功念书。我真的真的希望，
当你悔改的时候，你还来得及！